Just FriendsDo you know how much it kills me to see you with her?Especially because she's my best friend.I've loved you for three years now.I blew it the first.The second we were friends, but you were hers.And you remained so in the thirdYou two broke up and continued to be best friend for a year.You two you talk everyday,Like we used to.You hang out constantly,Like we used to.You kiss passionately,Just like we used toI miss you so much.But what kills me the most is you two are hugging and kissing and I'm just there watching, in pain.Also knowing that we will only be best friends and nothing more.There was a time a little while ago that I thought you had feeling for me,I was stupid and didn't take the opportunity,But I guess I didn't realize, it would be the last.Because you two are inseparable.And I'm left watching my two best friends together,Knowing I will never have you.Because you are one,And no matter what I do I will be hurting someone,But I'm mostly killing myself.
The Perfect NightThe darkened sky presented a full moon,And your face was illuminated by its rays of light.You gently ran your fingers over my stomach,As I heard stories of the life you were trying to fulfill.Eventually our lips drew closer,The fire in my heart was burning brighterThan the millions of stars pictured in the night sky.The air was cold, but you kept me warm,Because you held me so close to your body, and I felt safe…As the sun was rising, you took my hand,Before leading me to your room…I fell asleep next to you in the early hours of the morning,As I listened to all my favourite songs,Being played by you on your guitar…
Goodbye AbuseThe paper again blank,From words i cannot sayI guess i just got scared,After what you did todayI'm sorry that i spoke,And I'm sorry that i criedBut, please listen,For once believe I've triedTonight was just so horrible,And again i felt the sting,Of a thousand pounding fistsHammering against my skin" Please don't hit me again,It really hurts my head"But you don't even notice,You'll just beat me till I'm deadNever have you been around,To comfort me from painInstead you use forceful hands,Only proving you more insaneMy heart is bleeding inside,My face stained black and blueI really hate lying to them,For the abusive things you doPeople are starting to wonder,If my excuses are realMany lies I've told them all,Of the bruises that won't heal"Falling over, tripping up,Even walking into the door,Playing sports on the weekendAnd slipping on the floor"I have no more heartTo cover up your dirty liesI tried my best to listen,To be quiet, and to hideBut after yea
EyesWhen I look through your eyes I see endless tears of passion,Your heart has merely been a play toy for all you've known.Your broken heart, broken by all,but claimed to be loved by many.Your mind ponders the meaning of life,but hasn't come up with a clue.Through long days and miserable nights,You have come to conclusion no one is here for you.As I hold your hand I let you know I understand, and that I'll always be here for you.
Love and FreedomDo you want me? What's the matter?You're afraid some door will close?You want the scent without the rose?The moans of love without the chatter?You think our love might be a tomb,The only exit through my pain?You'd rather put things off againTo give your fantasies some room?You think: she's great, but in a whileI might get bored? Or something better,Filling out a tighter sweater,Might flash me a quick come-on smile?You don't want to be tied just yetTo just one future, just one kiss?You think about all you might missAnd hold out for a better bet?Well, fine! But then why do you hauntMe like a jackal night and day?Why, when my interest seems to stray,Are you so sure of what you want?Why, when I dare so much as laughAt some guy's jokes, you go ballistic,Nasty, borderline sadistic,As if somebody touched your stuff?And yet when I hook on to you,You will not let yourself be mine,Take out your fears and draw a lineBetween what you and I can do?But freedom must be mut
Beautiful MistakeLove is the slowest form of suicideYour lips are laced with cyanideBut I'm still addicted to your kissAnd I can feel the tingle on my lipsI hear your lies inside my headI know I'm alive but I feel deadI can't take the pain you causedNothing can replace what I have lostEach cut replaces what I use to knowThe blood is so pretty against the snowI can feel my heart beating fasterAs I stare at my beautiful disasterYou were my favorite mistakeNow you're the cuts I have to makeSoon you'll be my favorite scarI can't handle who you areOutside you see my smiles; I'm faking!Inside you can't see my pain; I'm breaking!I'm good at hiding, great at pretendingNo one knows my life is endingI'm silent even when I'm screamingI'm awake even when I'm dreamingI'm not alive even when I'm breathingMy heart's broken even when it's beatingI feel the blood seep through the skinYou're every mark, every sinYou're the name my wrist is bleedingYou're the name my voice is screamingYou're t